Everybody wants respect. Just a little bit...

Well, in somewhat slightly spontaneous act. I Typed up
I hereby resign my position with Woolworths Ltd.... Before going into work today and gave it to the boss when I got there. I had considered it but decided I should keep on working sundays but I've just had enough. Now I'm pretty much a bum.

With regards to Scott and Ben's comments to my last post... I think I do want to work in a university. I'll avoid all the practical stuff though if i can. I'd like to be a theoretician. I want to learn about string theory. And general rel. The kinds of physics that is more maths and philosophy than actually physics. I think as long as i survive my honours project that I'll apply to do my PhD... One thing that I have been thinking about that I hadn't previously considered is the option to do honours in maths instead of physics. Because none of the physics projects involve general rel... It's a toss up between string theory (with physics) or G.R. (with maths)... I think i'd like to do my honours project on G.R. but my PhD on string theory... but I don't think that's an option. I wonder if i'd be able to do a project with maths solely for the education next semester... then start honours in physics next year... String theorist... That job title has a good ring to it eh?

Hmm i got distracted from this post reading string theory pdf's... Wish it made more sense...

What about me? It isn't fair...

It's been so long since I've posted here. I was waiting for somebody else to start posting again, or somebody to comment and tell me to update. But it's like nobody reads these anymore.

Well it's been 2 months and 1 day since I was officially single... And I'm so happy. It's certainly different. We tend to fight too much whenever we go out... Meagan is still in the 'ooooh pubs', phase. Where going out as often as possible is fucking awesome... Whereas I'm actually over it. Beleive it or not. Most of the time I go out with her anyways. Partially because I just wanna see her and it means we will most likely spend the night together and partially because I worry. She gets way too drunk most of the time and doesnt know how she is getting home. Taxi I suppose. But she has a tendancy of fighting with her freinds when she is drunk and insisting on sitting somewhere at the side of the road. So if i dont go out i'm gonna end up getting up at 3.30am to come pick her up anyway... Might as well enjoy half the night if i go out... Just sucks getting tired and wanting to go home at 1-1.30 and she doesnt ever wanna go until 2.30-4 regime... But hey. I can put up with it.

I still have no idea what I want to do with my life... both present and future. For present, I am considering quiting 1-2 of my 3 current jobs. I've been trying to cut down my hours at safeway just to the sunday shift cos of both double time and i get my weekend back. But it doesn't look promising any time soon. I've got my friday night covered for the moment and every second saturday... but the other two blokes are both taking time off soon. So they are gonna try to make me do those shifts again probably and def not get the other saturday covered... Also the JD's shift.... It's so good, like easy as and not bad money. But, I really would like have a weekend. At the moment i'm getting 1 day off every two weeks. And I reckons I could get by without the money. Especially with a couple of hours at uni at $30 an hour. Still not sure what to do.

Slightly longer term.... What will i do at the end of this semester. Especially if i dont have a job... I wanted to go travelling. But I'm definately not going myself and doesnt look like anybody is comin with me. I'll have finished my degree but i wanna do honours. Which means I can either do the project first (if it isnt too late to apply) and then i'll finish that midway through next year. Or i can wait and start it next year which means doing the coursework first. Which i think would be easier. Also I'm not going overseas assuming I'm still with meagan anyways. I'd rather stay here and I dont think she'd be able to come with me.

But what do i really want once i'm done with uni anyway?? I can't realisticly see me publishing papers, with the title Prof. working at a university. Writing books. Making appearances on those weird SBS shows that try to teach stupid people stuff about the universe with flashy colours. So what else do I do with my degree? Do i do a PhD? Will they let me?

It's easier not to be great

Well it's been quite some time since I (or anybody else) has updated.

I know I haven't been around much lately... But for the most part, nothing has really been organised for stuff to do... Except while I was in queensland. But now when something spontaneous is happening I have made other plans by then. I really want more than anything for Meagan to get along with you guys.

I keep trying to organise things but it doesnt work... I'm going to host predrinks at mine tomorrow... and i was like perfect opportunity... but meagan has to play netball so cant come...

It feels awkward around people now too... because it feels like most people have already decided she is rude and thats that.

I'm not trying to ditch anybody... I just want to be happy though... The last time I actually felt happy with myself was almost 2 years ago i think.


In other news, my holiday was great.

Ask a scientist; it's quantum physics

Weirdest hour ever.

At 10.40 I offered to loan a customer $20 out of my wallet and he said he'd be back at 11 to pay me back. He did... Just... It's good to actually feel that there is some good left in people.

But then with this thought leaving work, i witnessed a driver throwing bottles out of his car at a ute... "mojoss"... and trying to jump into the ute and swinging open his door at the ute and trying to kick it into the ute while traveling at about 100... i followed and memorised the number plate.. then got outta the way to call the cops.. I no longer have the plate memorised though the number was 840 and i think it started with a p... (not ptx820 which is all my brain seems to wanna recall atm, which i think was the guy that got ben, though hrrm.. i should check that again). I forgot it because when i did a u-turn to go back after them to see if the guy was ok i found a guy stumbling about at the side of the road trying to flag down a car...

No...

No, it was totally unrelated. However i recognised him as a customer i've seen at work. And when i stopped to ask if he was ok he appeared quite the contrary. and explained he has just been beaten with a bat and was at frankston hospital but is now walking home... So i picked up the guy and drove him to cranny where he explained how this guy thought he was having an affair with his wife or something and just jumped him with a bat and then because he had a history with prescription drugs 15 years prior the nurse at the hospital thought thats all he was after so he just got up and left frankston hospital to try to walk home to cranbourne.. with no phone, wallet or keys.



In other news... our holiday is booked. leaving on the 10th of feb and coming back on the 17th. I am so excited about it

Run to the water

So...

Maybe going to surfers... Looking optomistic. I'm so excited!

If all goes according to plan, I will be gone from monday 12th feb until friday or saturday (16th, 17th)... Here's to hoping!

I bought myself a grey guitar

In case anybody actually still checks these blogs on a regular case; I'm sorry. For a while I was updating regularly, albeit everything I say is crud. I use that word too much and now all of a sudden I've decided it doesn't look like a word. Strange. Albeit.

One word that has always confused me is the spelling of the colour gray. As it turns out both grey and gray are correct. Stupid word.

In more important news, and while i'm sure everybody is sick of hearing about her by now, things are going good with Meagan (I think so anyways). And if you are sick of hearing it then stop reading! Camping didnt happen. So i did get to see her all weekend :D asides from while i was at work. She's stayed here 5 nights in the past week, though part of that is contributed to both of our families being away. It was really nice. Although last night after work she drove to Lorne to where her family is staying and won't come back until saturday for a party bus. And i'll be at work until 9 so she'll be gone before i see her. And then i'm working all day and all night sunday. So again i won't see her. Though i'm trying to get sunday night off work and kill two birds with one stone. Because then I can play volleyball on sunday and then i'll be able to see Meagan after... hmm... Amy, your an idiot... you told me volleyball was on this sunday... its next sunday!!!

Hmm well then... we'll see what happens with that. Don't know if i should call back and tell them I can work or not.

I've been playing a bit of poker on the internet this past week... Not with real money yet.. But might do sometime soon... I wanna go to the casino again too.

Speaking of.. I know i've asked people but i forget who said yes.... Who wants to have a big night out at crown sometime soonish? like gambling lasering arcade drinking(of course)... I'm talking about an overall quite expensive night

I am here in my mold

And I'm a million different people from one day to the next

I'm not gonna see her for a whole week cos she going away with family :(

Also i wont see her all weekend if she goes camping and i can't get work off... Heres to hoping i can get work off and go with them.

Hmm i never really have anything i feel like saying these days... i feel like posting, then i sit down and its even more crud than usual.

And the sign said Long haired freaky people; need not apply