Beneath the milky twilight

Out on the moonlit floor...

Hmm I did promise an update on sunday or monday, although i'm sure nobody noticed it never happened. But here it is, better late than never.

So I did go to the movies with rachel on saturday... It was actually really cool, got along quite well. Then there's the awkward goodbye at the end. She followed me to my car basically when i had to leave cos she was hanging around frankston. I didn't know what to do, since it was like a date it's like obligatory to kiss at the end. But I am too scared for anything like that. And that would force an ultimatum upon me. Because once you kiss, it's kinda hard to go back to being just freinds unless you were already freinds to begin with. And then it's like your falling into possible dating and I dunno, I guess I'd just like to get to know a prospective girlfreind before the ultimatum.

And what reminded me to post this is that I went out with her last night. She took me to see the christmas lights about, I've never actually went around and looked at them. It was really nice. There is a house at the top of oliver's hill that let people walk into their garden and they have spent way too much time and effort putting tons of christmas lights around. Was cool that they let people come in and walk about looking at it all. After looking around we went down to seaford beach and ended up sitting at a bench at the end of the pier. Again it was really nice. But then when I got home I sorta hurriedly got out the car to avoid the awkward silence. And I realised I had so I messaged her once I was in bed just saying thanks for the night and sorry about the awkward silence (because we had spoke about it after last time)... But apparently it's "too weird" now...

I guess I'm still too me...