What about me? It isn't fair...

It's been so long since I've posted here. I was waiting for somebody else to start posting again, or somebody to comment and tell me to update. But it's like nobody reads these anymore.

Well it's been 2 months and 1 day since I was officially single... And I'm so happy. It's certainly different. We tend to fight too much whenever we go out... Meagan is still in the 'ooooh pubs', phase. Where going out as often as possible is fucking awesome... Whereas I'm actually over it. Beleive it or not. Most of the time I go out with her anyways. Partially because I just wanna see her and it means we will most likely spend the night together and partially because I worry. She gets way too drunk most of the time and doesnt know how she is getting home. Taxi I suppose. But she has a tendancy of fighting with her freinds when she is drunk and insisting on sitting somewhere at the side of the road. So if i dont go out i'm gonna end up getting up at 3.30am to come pick her up anyway... Might as well enjoy half the night if i go out... Just sucks getting tired and wanting to go home at 1-1.30 and she doesnt ever wanna go until 2.30-4 regime... But hey. I can put up with it.

I still have no idea what I want to do with my life... both present and future. For present, I am considering quiting 1-2 of my 3 current jobs. I've been trying to cut down my hours at safeway just to the sunday shift cos of both double time and i get my weekend back. But it doesn't look promising any time soon. I've got my friday night covered for the moment and every second saturday... but the other two blokes are both taking time off soon. So they are gonna try to make me do those shifts again probably and def not get the other saturday covered... Also the JD's shift.... It's so good, like easy as and not bad money. But, I really would like have a weekend. At the moment i'm getting 1 day off every two weeks. And I reckons I could get by without the money. Especially with a couple of hours at uni at $30 an hour. Still not sure what to do.

Slightly longer term.... What will i do at the end of this semester. Especially if i dont have a job... I wanted to go travelling. But I'm definately not going myself and doesnt look like anybody is comin with me. I'll have finished my degree but i wanna do honours. Which means I can either do the project first (if it isnt too late to apply) and then i'll finish that midway through next year. Or i can wait and start it next year which means doing the coursework first. Which i think would be easier. Also I'm not going overseas assuming I'm still with meagan anyways. I'd rather stay here and I dont think she'd be able to come with me.

But what do i really want once i'm done with uni anyway?? I can't realisticly see me publishing papers, with the title Prof. working at a university. Writing books. Making appearances on those weird SBS shows that try to teach stupid people stuff about the universe with flashy colours. So what else do I do with my degree? Do i do a PhD? Will they let me?